not like the movies

he put it on me, i put it on
like there was nothing wrong
it didn't fit
it wasn't right
wasn't just the size
they say you know when you know
i don't know

i didn't feel the fairytale feeling, no
am i a stupid girl for even dreaming that i could

if it's not like the movies
that's how it should be.

the dream

i dreamed that you had ceased to love me
not that you had come from other beds
back to mine, or gone from mine to others,
just that something in your heart had stopped

i willed myself awake to find you still beside me
it was just a dream, i thought,
yet when i turned to kiss you, in your eyes
i saw that you had ceased to love me.

i willed myself awake a second time
to find myself alone, as i have been
these many months, but did not know if it
was terror or relief i felt, and whether

dreams unfold the past or make the future plain
i dreamed that you had ceased to love me,
and know when i see nothing in your eyes
i can't dream myself awake a third time.

[david solway]